Thinking...Hurts....

Hey folks! I figure it's been long enough since I last posted to my blog, but you know I honestly have not had much happen that I thought was worthy enough to blog about. Even as I sit here my life is consisting of Food Network on TV, C.C. in my lap, and my kitty kat pjs. Yeah, told ya, real exciting! :D

I guess one could say that life has not liked me very much lately. What do I mean by that? Well, between still being unemployed....which bites!....money is tight, and as my momma says "when you start getting two steps ahead, something happens and you find yourself six steps back." I mean right now the Hubby and I being ahead for any reason is like huge wow! But life on the other hand has decided that it doesn't like me and keeps throwing land mines at me! Do you have any idea how much those sting?! *Ten points if you can figure what movie I got that statement from!* But seriously, I absolutely HATE not being in control of my own life! Right now I am literally putting my life in the hands of employers and praying that I can impress enough to start earning a paycheck....this blows!

I guess what makes matters worse is the fact that I watch TV and I see shows with people running their own businesses, people with no formal training, doing a job that is earning them money, and I start to wonder, is there anything that I'm really good enough at that I think I could do to earn my own money at? Well, lets see: 1.) I'm fairly decent at poker, and I play it for fun, but if I was to look at it seriously, where and how would I win any money at that around here? I would probably lose more money just from the entry fees than I would winning anything, so that's out. 2.) I like to bake, okay that's an idea. What kinds of things do I make consistently well every time? Yeah, that's a short list. Besides, once again I would probably spend more money buying the ingredients to make the stuff than I would make selling them. That's another problem, where would I sell them? Any more you have to have government/health papers signed in blood to be able to sell anything to the public as is! Yeah, once again that one's out. 3.) I have made some role playing game accessories that I could sell. This one probably has the least amount of drawbacks, but it still has some. The main thing I have made is a dice bag that is reversible and actually very sturdy. I make each one by hand, so there's a drawback right there, it takes almost an hour plus for each bag. I sew them by hand as well. I could use my sewing machine, but where each bag is different, I really need to feel where each fold and such is, so the fingers have it! And honestly the fabric part is not too expensive considering how many bags I can make out of each swatch so that one isn't too bad. The string/leather/ties on the other hand, are not cheap and not so easy to find. But I'm left with the option of where do I sell them? Not a big clientele around here for these little bags, although they can be used for other things besides dice. I could go through an online site, but by the time I upload, wait, maybe sell, and ship, I dunno how much profit I would be gleaning from them.

So I'm back to my position sitting on the couch wondering what I can do, in between jobs, to make ends meet. All I keep coming up with are the same ideas, with a whole new set of problems.

Thinking too much hurts, and yep, right now, I feel like life's ball!